It is 8 am on Thursday morning in the Philippines as I type this. I can only pray that today is the day. I got an email from my case worker here today that he contacted the ICAB last night because he had not heard from them and they said they had everything in order for matching…her file is complete. They did not say that they would match us today, but they didn’t say they wouldn’t either. I am praying and hoping for today…I will let you know once I hear one way or the other. The sad truth is, I think I am living under the naive assumption that they do not have any cases that are higher priority than mine 🙂 Although I have moments of delusional thinking I am sure that is not really the case even though I want it to be! Once again, I am trusting God for his timing. Please join me in praying that IF this is the time, than it would happen in the next 12 hours…thank you. Your prayers mean more to us than you can possibly know!
Well, here we are, the Monday following Spring Break. We had a nice week, nothing too exciting…a movie, lots of hanging out and playing outside. Finishing our photo album and our letters to our girl.
The biggest news I have for today is WE HAVE A BED…I feel like I got a crib for a new baby. But really it is a double bed mattress and boxspring that has been in Chad’s sister’s guest room for less than a year. She is changing that room into an office and no longer needs a bed in there SO we are the lucky recipients of a new bed! Chad’s dad brought it up this morning and we are setting it up later on. The room transition has begun. 🙂 Lizzie is very excited!
We are praying for matching this week…please join us. Especially on Wednesday night here, which is Thursday morning in the Philippines. I am hopeful and yet, I also feel like I have hit somewhat of a slump. I so badly want it to happen but am afraid to get my hopes up for them to be dashed once again. I know God’s timing is perfect, but I am so quick to slip back into doubt and confusion about why it seems to take so long! I read a great post yesterday by Beth Moore, about Easter. It is a great reminder of how I should be feeling now and letting this go…she said, ” In the quake of the Cross, hopelessness slipped through the trembling cracks of earth and fell with an everlasting sentence into the bottomless abyss.” With so much HOPE how can I feel hopeless? I know that the enemy wants to beat me down. I know he is a joy stealer. I know he wants me on this roller coaster of doubt, and sometimes not just a roller coaster, it feels like a tidal wave at times. AND THEN, God steps in…and I get an email about a group of friends holding a garage sale this weekend with us receiving all the proceeds…and another one telling me that our story was told as part of a devotion in Jamaica…and a phone call about a free bed coming our way…and emails from Lifesong, telling us of the amazing generosity of those who love us and are supporting our adoption fund. Praise Jesus. I know he is battling for me, reminding me that EVEN WHEN I FALTER, he is ever so FAITHFUL. When I feel hopeless, I hear him screaming, “NO! I am your only hope. It was finished the minute I rose from the dead!” That long ago…hopelessness was finished, my enemy was finished. Every doubt he sends my way is him struggling against the ineveitable. He loses. He has already lost me, but wants me discouraged so I can not speak of my great joy…and my hope. My hope will never lie with the Filipino government, it will lie and RISE with Jesus! I am going to keep that wrapped around my heart and mind this week as I wait.
I thought you all would enjoy seeing one of the photos we are sending with our photo album. It goes along with my post about HOPE when we found out that our girl had written hope on her arm in hope of a family. Well, since that day every person in our home has had “HOPE” written on our arms as we wait for it to be revealed to her that God has heard her prayers. We are sending this photo in her album…
Also, with our album, we are each sending letters. I have sat down to write my letter and have been stumped each time. How do you explain to a child that you can’t wait to be her mom? How do you assure her that it will be OK, even though she must be terrified? It is the strangest experience I have had so far in this experience…although I am sure I am in for a LOT more experiences that I can not begin to imagine or expect. I will let you know if I hear anything new!
We were able to get fingerprinted this morning! We only waited about 25 minutes and were done! We are now officially in the FBI system…how crazy is that? Hopefully it will speed us up some to have gotten it done about 2 weeks early. I must say, I was shocked at how kind and helpful everyone at the Homeland Security office was…it looks like any other government agency (Driver’s License, Social Security, etc) but WOW…they were fast and super nice!
Thank you for your prayers today!
Well, it is Monday morning of Spring Break. We still know nothing and probably won’t for another week or so. I am pretty sure now that they will not meet on our case this week because it is a holiday this Thursday in the Philippines.
In other news Chad and I are going to get fingerprinted this morning. Please pray that they will see us as we are going about 2 weeks before our scheduled appointment =) at our case workers advice. We will have one more thing checked off our list, which is a huge blessing!
Also, Lizzie has been working like crazy to complete a photo album that we can send to the Philippines as soon as our girl knows! We each are writing letters to her (short ones) and are sending tons of pictures of the house and stuff we love to do as a family. It is fun to see what Lizzie enjoys about our family as she puts it together for her! We were going to do this fancy scrapbook and then our case worker suggested we do a little one (from the dollar store) so that it was cheaper to mail. We might do the big one for Chad and I to take to her when we go to pick her up or wait and make it together with new memories once she is here!
Blessings on your day…wherever you are! Please pray they will let us get fingerprinted!
Well, we did not get matched today, so they still are unable to tell her that we are the family that is adopting her. I am sad for her, because I am sure she is wondering and afraid, but it is what it is. The GOOD NEWS is she has some other appointments scheduled in the very near future that will speed up the process…to the point where they could possibly be waiting at the end for our paperwork, not the other way around.
Please pray for the Dept of Homeland Security to be swift and fast once we are fingerprinted! Our plan is to show up on Monday and beg…our appt for fingerprinting is not until April 29th, but our case worker has said they will see us if we just show up. Our hope is to have our final approval for suitability by mid-late May from Homeland Security and also to have her legal documents in hand by then to send it all back off. That will be our last step I think =)
Thank you so much for your prayers during this exciting time. We are desperate for her to know that it is us, but know that God in His infinite wisdom is choosing the time that is right for HER. I would never have it any other way.
SHE KNOWS…SHE KNOWS…SHE KNOWS. She knows she is being adopted. EVERYONE knows she is being adopted. I could jump out of my skin today, because there is one piece missing still…she doesn’t know WHO yet! I am praying that she finds out as soon as the meeting is done and it is official that she is ours!
I literally cannot explain my anticipation today….it is off the charts! She has even already had her visa medical done so she only has one more thing to do there. There is quite a bit here still with immigration paperwork, but still, it gets us even closer to our goal of bringing her HOME.
***UPDATE: I just told Samuel and he thinks she might be “peeing” herself. That might be an understatement!